It’s The Little Things (that really aren’t so little)
Not only did we have concrete facts to show that Emma wasn’t progressing, we had her anxiety about school as well. And on top of that, I witnessed lots of “little things” that just added up and created one very unhappy Mama. Before I get into those, here’s some background. Last year, in Kindergarten, Emma had a wonderful aide that she shared with another student who had a visual impairment. Things were great. She was in a classroom that was highly structured, she had 2 amazing teachers, and 1 amazing para (aide) who was able to attend to her inability to focus. This past year, for first grade, we were super lucky to have this wonderful para back. Little did I know, however, they piled 2 more kids onto her plate. So Emma was now sharing this para with 3 other students with varying delays and disabilities. Not only was this not fair to Emma (of course, my first concern), but this wasn’t fair to the para or the other 3 students. I’m not sure of anyone who would be able to attend to these girls’ needs in the general ed setting. We were setting ourselves up for failure. I voiced my concerns. Many times. On top of that, Emma was now placed in a classroom that was less structured, less routine. My fault in that was that I didn’t go into these classrooms before hand to observe the setting. And I should have. (Lesson 1, my friends!! Learn from my mistakes!)
We had meetings to discuss Emma’s lack of progress (their words, not mine) and her anxiety. We decided to put her into a classroom that was more “self-contained”. Well, I should’ve thought more about that as well. This special ed teacher had 32 kids on her plate (granted, not in the classroom at the same time). She had paras floating in and out of the room. As well as these kids. There was no routine or structure in there. While there were fewer kids, there were people coming in and out of the room. This wasn’t a good situation for Emma either. Her happiness declined. Temper tantrums increased. This clearly wasn’t working out. Again, I tried voicing my concerns. They fell on deaf ears. Or ears that didn’t want to do anything about it.
Enter “the little things”. The last 2 months of school were just one big hill moving downward. Quickly.
Issue 1: On a day when Emma’s para wasn’t there, there was no one to walk the kids out to the parent pick up line. Emma found me immediately. The little girl with the visual impairment was led out to the parent pick up line by another little girl with severe mental delays. How is this right? Fortunately I took over and led the VI girl to her mom, who doesn’t speak English, by the way. How did this responsibility fall on the girls? If the para had to leave early, why wasn’t there someone else to escort them out? It’s in these girls IEP documents (legal documents, by the way) that they have para support during transitional times. On top of that, the general ed teacher was right inside the gate, and led the other students to the bus line. And another aide walked right by them. When I asked this aide where an adult was, she just shrugged and hurried right past me. I brought this concern to the attention of the principal and the special ed teacher. The principal wasn’t happy. The special ed teacher told me that the aide I spoke with had to hurry to another job. I’m sorry…what? Wouldn’t most people have a moral obligation to help a student who is blind? Let alone a para who works with them should have that moral obligation.
Issue 2: I have the pleasure to supervise my students at lunch at the same time Emma eats lunch. During lunch, again, Emma (and the 3 little girls) have para support. The para, at this time, helps them buy their hot lunch, makes sure they get utensils, and helps them sit down. The para also makes sure that they can open straws or forks (something that’s difficult for Emma with her low muscle tone). And she also makes sure they eat a little something! During this lunch period, their wonderful para gets relieved by another para so she can eat lunch. The second para, by the way, is the same person who also rushed by me after school in Issue 1. Well, this para made sure she helped Emma clean her plate. I saw her (twice) eat food off of Emma’s plate. This is wrong on so many different levels. First, no where in Emma’s IEP does it say that she is to be fed. She’s very able to feed herself. She just needs redirection, sometimes. Also, as an aide, I don’t want to touch my students food. Ew. I don’t know where their hands have been. She teases Emma with a grape, then pops it into her own mouth. Not 5 minutes later, I see this para blowing her nose into a napkin. Okay, when I am watching over my students, I do everything I can NOT to touch their food. And I keep a bottle of hand sanitizer around my neck. Not quite believing what I saw, I put the other aides I work with on alert. Finally, someone else sees what I see. Again, I wrote an email to the principal to let him know of what I saw.
Am I in the twilight zone? <fade in music>
Issue 3: On a day when Emma’s regular para wasn’t in school, she had no support during the first part of lunch. By the time the second para came in to help, Emma had packed her lunchbox up. The para didn’t ask to see what she ate or look inside (perhaps the para wasn’t hungry that day?). When I got home, this is what I found:
This is just another reason why Emma needs para support at lunch. She didn’t get her open yogurt to the trash, nor her open and full juice box. She didn’t even touch her peanut butter sandwich or her cheese stick, the “important” things (containing the most protein). Immediately I took this picture and attached it to a nice email I sent to the special education teacher. Want to read that email? Okay!
Mrs. Special Ed Teacher,
I attached a picture to this email that shows Emma’s lunch box as I found it yesterday after school. It emphasizes the fact that not only does she NEED para support at lunch time, but it is in her IEP.
I understand if there isn’t a sub to pick up her normal Para’s position. You can’t force someone to take a sub job. HOWEVER, there are plenty of para’s on campus, ESPECIALLY the DPS paras that are on lunch time during Emma’s lunch. One of them could very easily provide assistance and supervision to Emma and the 3 other girls in Ms. Para’s care. This is the school’s responsibility to find a para to fill in, per her IEP.
I wanted to bring this to your attention.
Sincerely,
Brett and Jessica
Can you tell I’m getting worked up just typing this out? Turns out this is a great release for me! I have more. But as not to bore you (or make you equally as frustrated as I am), I will save it for tomorrow.
Keep this as food for thought…no pun intended.
What would you have done in my situation? I’m very curious! Please leave comments!














Jessica, I am angry FOR you and Emma! How darm the para act that way??? And to eat her food? OMG I would have gone crazy on the lady! You are so right in attaching the photo to the email. I am so happy that you were not being quiet about this!
I am so sorry that your family had to endure such treatment.
Sending ((HUGS)) from Chicago…..
That is gross about the para eating her food. It’s sad that schools have such trouble finding qualified paras. I have a friend who teaches autistic middle school kids and she has had some awful para experiences.
I love your idea about checking out the classrooms to get the right teacher for Emma. I wish I had done this for my kids. Hunter always seemed to get the wrong teacher. Don’t get me wrong, the were good teachers, but their styles just did not mesh with his ADD / hyperfocus.
I am so into your story. I can’t wait to read what happens next!
I think you did the right thing; taking a picture and sending an email. This whole situation is so unfortunate. If it were me, I probably would have also toilet papered the para’s car, just to make me feel better
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Jessica,
I concur with your approach to “blow their cover.” Do not allow the school to “hide” behind any of the inappropriate behaviors. Psychologically, you are calling them on the carpet everytime they infringe upon the “rules.” At the end of the game, they can tell the score, see they are losing and they will be forced by their own behaviors to take corrective action. YOu are just allowing them to “Do the Right Thing!” So, everytime you uncover their deficiencies, just keep thinking…I am going to allow you to “Do the Right Thing”…because at the end of the day…they know what is RIGHT! Every time you disclose their own behaviors to them, you are gifting them with “Permission Slips” that will allow them to take responsible action that is consistent with their core values. Think in terms of alignment…you are just helping them align because they don’t even know how out of alignment they are! So, what you are doing is a greater gift to all who are served by special education…not just you…not just Emma…not just these three little girls…not just them…the whole VALUE of Special Education and all that are served! You have nothing to Fear as you are coming from a place of infinite LOVE for the remarkable opportunities of ALL,ALL, ALL children. Let this vision inspire your continued thoughts and actions…and know I am devoting my strenght of spirit to you!!
Who eats off of a child’s plate? This is too much, letting them wander around unsupervised, not helping at meal time. Obviously, it’s needed. I hope you got ‘em.
Isn’t that the grosses thing ever?